The Unexpected Game Changer

In the summer of 2011 my mom fell and broke her wrist. Not long after that she started limping while she walked. It was originally diagnosed as a pinched nerve in her back. No amount of physical therapy offered any change. Her limp just got worse. In May of 2012 we received the devastating news that she had ALS. This forced her to retire. A year later she can hardly walk, and can hardly talk. ALS is a horrible disease. This blog is just a way for me to vent.

Wednesday, March 9, 2016

Dreams

Last night I dreamt my mom said two words. I really don't know how to not hate the world. I miss her all the time. Of course I love my ALS mom. But I'd rather be the one with ALS. I'd trade places with her tomorrow. She doesn't deserve any of this. Not one single second of it.

Wednesday, February 17, 2016

I miss her so much

It hurts so badly all the time. I'm so selfish though. She's the one trapped in the depths of ALS hell. I miss her so much. Sometimes I wonder if she hates me for not knowing what she needs or wants. I HATE ALS. And I'm beginning to hate myself.